Entry #1,054

Too late

2017-04-20 04:24:10 by KILLY12
Updated

Way to go. I fucked up and hurt the closest person to me and the last person I trusted. Someone that genuenly wanted to keep me apart of their life and I managed to pushed themaway until they hated me. Another good olde fuck up. Another slip deeper into this hole. The fucking point of quiting drinking now. No ones left to care. The fuck am I even doing with my life. The fuck is the point anymore. My life has just become waiting to die. Whats the point in living when people are desposible, and will leave. The point in living when your just supposed to not give a fuck about anything and anyone. There is no reason. How long do I have to wait. I've become more afraid of suicide failing than succeeding. But, thanks for trying. I told you I was hopeless. I can't get my shit together in time, nor can I kill myself right. Like I said, my purpose is outlived. I should've been dead years ago. Shit only gets worse from then on. I pray to not wake up, not only do i wake up, but I wake up early as fuck and unable to go back to sleep. Sitting here hating myself and trying to talk myself into swallowing a bunch of pills


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GuarapariBuziosArteGuarapariBuziosArte

2017-04-20 08:52:36

k....


FidisSopFidisSop

2017-04-20 13:56:36

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