Well since my friend has seemed to have gone away I dont have to be 100% cheery. Now Im can bitch about stuff, do some more bitching, and bitch even more. So here comes my bitching.

To begin, Im a future fuck up. There is no future for me in this life. My home is filled with filthy, ugly, disgraces to the human name and this is what Im stuck with. Im the only human born in hell with a gang of demons surrounding me. And I'm always confused and put into the same statistics as them. I cant get any job, my hopeless dream for freedom impedes me conforming to labor or a desk job, college comes to be more and more useless to me, and my dream is to run naked through the forest that I live in and make music. Why do I live in this life? How can some almighty expect a good future for me? Is hell all that I get? Am I doomed to be trapped here?
And again why?
Why?