Well of course there thousands of you that's been wondering what happened to me. We I've been talking to a girl I met here for 7 years now. We became best friends and unfortunately I fell inlove with her. We'd pretend to be in a relationship, tell each other we love each other, and by the time I decide to commit and tell her I'm going to meet her, she tells me she committed to her ex. Went though a depression, attempted suicide a couple times, became an alcoholic, and begged her for help at less, but eventually my illness became to heavy of a burden on her. She blocked all contact with me. I haven't heard from her in months and the last thing she said was "you know what, fuck you." I don't hate her, I don't blame her. I got really sick, it was really bad, and its not her responsibility to take care of a grown man she found on the internet.
I feel used and Worthless, but it doesn't matter. She doesn't care, none of you care, why should I. Like I said, I don't hate her. I was sick, she was sick, we both needed help. I did my best to help Her, but she'd rather throw that away. One thing that I did learn from this experience is that I.may be bipolar. So, somethingn good came from this. Now ifnojly I could get actually help outside of drinking