Every moment I'm thinking I'm moving on and ready to forgive, she does some shit to piss me off. I point out how she's being a heartless bitch and I'm the bad guy. Fuck all the years I gave her attention damn near 24/7, did all I could to comfort her during her hard time, she says fuck me all because I wasn't OK with her using me anymore. I try to look past it and help her because she's going through real bad situations, nope. She can't forgive me for not being OK with being her bitch. Fuck everything good I did, in wrong. Fuck every bad thing she did, I should be forgiving. Fuck my forgiveness, in asshole and did horrible things to here. All my fault. Its my fault I feel in love, got attached, got my feelings hurt, got depressed and suicidal. All I had to do was sit back and wait for her boyfriend to fuck up again. That's all I was good for. Just the fallback