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You can't make me

kill people burn shit fuck sch

Chicago... I think

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Posted by KILLY12 - February 20th, 2017


Some people are here to make life easier for others

Its not the life I've been forced into, its just what I'm good at

I'm always going to be there for my loved ones, whether they'll do the same for me or not


Posted by KILLY12 - February 20th, 2017


No matter what, I can't turn my back on family.


Posted by KILLY12 - February 19th, 2017


This is a depression post

Another post because I'm pissed off

Another post because things aren't as simple as "get over it"

Another post because everything's my fault and I'm always supposed to be OK with it

Another post because I want to kill myself but every attempt is stopped by a bit of hope

Another post because I'm supposed to give up hope

Another post because my job keeps me distant from the rest of society

Another post because people i called family is suffering alone and im not allowed to talk to them

Anotber post because its no big deal and I should be happy

Another post because none of you matter

Another post because I don't matter

Another post because none of this matters

Another post because I'm the broken will of a man and its my fault over a lie someone else told me

Another post because your just gonna joke about it


Posted by KILLY12 - February 14th, 2017


I don't ever care if she's homeless anymore. I tried to put everything aside and forgive her for using me like a fucking dog, but she wants to stay upset because I wasn't OK with it. If she's sleeping on a park bench in the cold now, that's her choice. She chose to prioritize the wrong things and chose to stick by those choices no matter what. She has a councilor to help her now. A had one if he let her get this far into a hole, but thats who she chose for help.


Posted by KILLY12 - February 14th, 2017


Every moment I'm thinking I'm moving on and ready to forgive, she does some shit to piss me off. I point out how she's being a heartless bitch and I'm the bad guy. Fuck all the years I gave her attention damn near 24/7, did all I could to comfort her during her hard time, she says fuck me all because I wasn't OK with her using me anymore. I try to look past it and help her because she's going through real bad situations, nope. She can't forgive me for not being OK with being her bitch. Fuck everything good I did, in wrong. Fuck every bad thing she did, I should be forgiving. Fuck my forgiveness, in asshole and did horrible things to here. All my fault. Its my fault I feel in love, got attached, got my feelings hurt, got depressed and suicidal. All I had to do was sit back and wait for her boyfriend to fuck up again. That's all I was good for. Just the fallback


Posted by KILLY12 - February 14th, 2017


Why do people think this is an actual thing you should do if a loved one is depressed?

"I see your going through a lot, and that's sucks, but your bumming me out so I have to go."

How is this helpful in any way?

If your depressed, you already feel like people are better off without you.

Seeing people walk out of your life only proves that to be true.

Its like a bad thing to be depressed openly.

If your suicidal, just keep it to yourself so you don't bother everyone else with the hardships of your life.

God forbid someone who gets everything they want in life gets a little gloomy from seeing you suffer in your infinite paradox of misery


Posted by KILLY12 - February 13th, 2017


I got better, gave her a break, tried to come back to help her. If she's done, I'm done. She has 1000 ways to contact me if she wants. I admitted I was wrong and and made a change, if she want to leave things at this, I'll accept it. Not like I have a choice. Its hard, turning your back on family, @owlgirl387


Posted by KILLY12 - February 9th, 2017


Some issues aren't as simple as "do this" or "take these." Sometimes issuses are connected to other issues. As long as the soirse issue is a thing, you can never move on. As lojg as you have unresolved issues you can never fix, all you can do is deal with it until you die


Posted by KILLY12 - February 8th, 2017


To: @owlgirl387

I pray for you in your time of need and wish you the best. I hope whatever it is your going through can be resolved as soon as possible.


Posted by KILLY12 - February 7th, 2017


I really hate how much of a good person I am

I'm trying to ignore them because I've done enough

They've done nothing for me but use me and move on

They dont want anything to do with me because I "insulted" them and their decisions.

So now if they ass homeless, that's on them to figure out.

I'd love to help the best I can

But I'm blocked